why muz dere alwaes be an emptiness feelin inside mie? i guess im oso havin mood swings.. but its jus so.. hyas.. i find myself hating da pple around mie.. i hate dem more n more each dae.. but i wun have ani more frens.. life is hard.. oh sumbodi pls tel mie wad to do.. i feel so helpless.. ''it'' leaves mie alone.. it alwaes find sumbodi else or three other it's n i wil b left alone walkin slowly bhind.. thinkin i used to b inside chattin wif dem.. but y m i left out everitime.. i saw my shadow in da sunset todae.. it was so alone n invisible.. i could hardly blieve it was mie.. y did tinks have to cum to such an end.. is dis realli da dead end ferr mie? IM NORT DESPO im jus wondering wad is the feelins of bein loved n to love? its been awhile i guess.. im all alone.. i noe all its habits.. y muz it alwaes be da same thing dat it does.. i can even PREDICT wad it gonna do.. it was my fren n im beginin to dislike it day by day..
i wan to cry n i noe nobodi wil b dere to c my tears fall.. but where is dat trusty shoulder dat ue were suppose to lean on when ue cry.. i guess its all gone...
vanished into thin air.. n i feel hollow inside mie..
will it ever b complete again???
hyas.. i dunno wad to sae.. i had a funni thot todae.. i was shocked dat i actualli had dis thot..kkaes.. dis thot is when i startin thinkin when wil he ever hold my hand again.. but its alreadi over ferr so long.. he shld have found other pple le bahhx.. wish hym all da best.. hyas.. i find it funni dat i ACTUALLI had dis thot.. oh wad da hell...
aniwae.. sumtimes i feel like im being left out.. i WUN use da word "pang seh" sumtimes its like she pair up wif her n she oso pair up wif her..den its like kinda im alone?? i try to blend in but hyas.. i wan go wif other pple but she dun like dem n dey dun realli like her.. hyas.. i dunnno wad to do..
wadd can i sae? i guess.. all dis is part n parcel of life..
ermm.. to all frens of mine~ dun ask mie hu is da pple im talkin bout.. i dun wanna hurt pple feelings n i dun wanna c ur have conflict.. dis is my blog n like diary.. so pls dun ask mie.. thanx!!! ((:
so mani pple tel mie to update my blog.. n put longer.. actualli nort alot larr.. hehex.. actualli gort smth happen i wa update but lazy larr.. kkaes lorr update now..yesterdae science one period onli.. den MS CHONG hu syahidah sae she veri PRETTY!!! hahas.. den she sae she kena paint on her shirt.. den call RAZAK up siia.. wahh.. den all da fringe all go up so fast lorr.. hahas. mine oso..go up so fast lehh.. den razak talk to her.. den talk to mr mahathir oso... den we sae die lerr.. cos we kinda put mr mahathir @ risk.. hyas.. den razak came in n asked ques... den he arrowed mie siia.. den i was.. wad da hell?? hahas.. cos is fridae den mr razak n da malay boiis in our klass need go ferr fridae prayers.. den razak dismiss us around 1.10 like dat.. den he said smth which makes him so totally ROCK
he said.. if ms chong ask wad time we end.. jus sae 1.45 around dere den end.. den our whole klass CHEER siia.. so rox mann razak.. U GO GUY!!! lols.. >.<
todae went to tm starbucks wif choir peepx.. or shld sae choir da NEW choir committee.. hehex.. we voted lorr.. den all i wan to b in da comm. all got in lerr... so happi den sumhow i oso gort in cos of a veri LONG story.. so im da onli sec two in da whole group of sec threes.. now i noe how it was like ferr da previous comms. so stressed.. went to starbucks wif dem.. den sat fer like two plus hours.. den discuss alot of tinks.. realised choir alot of problems.. like FINANCIAL problems.. lols.. den gort absentee problems.. spirit problems.. hyas.. alot of problems correct alreadi.. but had fun.. n i drank VANILLA MILKSHAKE... wanna noe y i drank vanilla?? check out my address larr.. ADDICTED!!!
went plaza sing todae wif frens.. b4 dat had lunch @ genki sushi @ tampines.. den go plaza sing.. lols. we go take neoprints.. walk walk around.. den eat kfc n go home.. lols... hahas.. kk post until here first.. next time post longer.. ((:
todae is last dae of first week of skool.. hyas.. so fast half a year fly lerr.. next year goin b sec three.. stil as childish as p6.. lols.. tmr is youth dae.. 40 of da crestvoices goin.. dey veri cham.. kena sunburn den stil need sing AND dance @ same time.. i almost join derr.. den my gd fren tel mie dun go.. cos use dis time to prepare ferr SYF COMPEITION.. hope can get in ferr compeition..hyas.. tired n siiann.. dunno y like gort siiann n empty feelin inside mie.. wad shld i do?~ hyas..=#
wahh so long nv post lerr.. aniwae dis week is last week of holidaes lerr.. relief or regret?? actualli i kinda miss skool.. cos holidaes like so siann-ed at least gort skool den can be kept busy.. ue muz b tinkin im nuts... mayb i m.. but if onli skool dint have exams den life would jus b perfect... or without tests n all those crapp.. lols guess shld jus stop here.. since im onli crappin myself up..lols LURVE all my peeps~
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