T@LeS Of @N OrDiNaRy GhUrL...

2006-07-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

why muz dere alwaes be an emptiness feelin inside mie? i guess im oso havin mood swings.. but its jus so.. hyas.. i find myself hating da pple around mie.. i hate dem more n more each dae.. but i wun have ani more frens.. life is hard.. oh sumbodi pls tel mie wad to do.. i feel so helpless.. ''it'' leaves mie alone.. it alwaes find sumbodi else or three other it's n i wil b left alone walkin slowly bhind.. thinkin i used to b inside chattin wif dem.. but y m i left out everitime.. i saw my shadow in da sunset todae.. it was so alone n invisible.. i could hardly blieve it was mie.. y did tinks have to cum to such an end.. is dis realli da dead end ferr mie? IM NORT DESPO im jus wondering wad is the feelins of bein loved n to love? its been awhile i guess.. im all alone.. i noe all its habits.. y muz it alwaes be da same thing dat it does.. i can even PREDICT wad it gonna do.. it was my fren n im beginin to dislike it day by day..
i wan to cry n i noe nobodi wil b dere to c my tears fall.. but where is dat trusty shoulder dat ue were suppose to lean on when ue cry.. i guess its all gone...
vanished into thin air.. n i feel hollow inside mie..
will it ever b complete again???

2006-07-24T05:57:00.000-07:00

hyas.. i dunno wad to sae.. i had a funni thot todae.. i was shocked dat i actualli had dis thot..kkaes.. dis thot is when i startin thinkin when wil he ever hold my hand again.. but its alreadi over ferr so long.. he shld have found other pple le bahhx.. wish hym all da best.. hyas.. i find it funni dat i ACTUALLI had dis thot.. oh wad da hell...

aniwae.. sumtimes i feel like im being left out.. i WUN use da word "pang seh" sumtimes its like she pair up wif her n she oso pair up wif her..den its like kinda im alone?? i try to blend in but hyas.. i wan go wif other pple but she dun like dem n dey dun realli like her.. hyas.. i dunnno wad to do..

wadd can i sae? i guess.. all dis is part n parcel of life..
ermm.. to all frens of mine~ dun ask mie hu is da pple im talkin bout.. i dun wanna hurt pple feelings n i dun wanna c ur have conflict.. dis is my blog n like diary.. so pls dun ask mie.. thanx!!! ((:

2006-07-21T21:24:00.000-07:00

so mani pple tel mie to update my blog.. n put longer.. actualli nort alot larr.. hehex.. actualli gort smth happen i wa update but lazy larr.. kkaes lorr update now..yesterdae science one period onli.. den MS CHONG hu syahidah sae she veri PRETTY!!! hahas.. den she sae she kena paint on her shirt.. den call RAZAK up siia.. wahh.. den all da fringe all go up so fast lorr.. hahas. mine oso..go up so fast lehh.. den razak talk to her.. den talk to mr mahathir oso... den we sae die lerr.. cos we kinda put mr mahathir @ risk.. hyas.. den razak came in n asked ques... den he arrowed mie siia.. den i was.. wad da hell?? hahas.. cos is fridae den mr razak n da malay boiis in our klass need go ferr fridae prayers.. den razak dismiss us around 1.10 like dat.. den he said smth which makes him so totally ROCK
he said.. if ms chong ask wad time we end.. jus sae 1.45 around dere den end.. den our whole klass CHEER siia.. so rox mann razak.. U GO GUY!!! lols.. >.<

2006-07-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

todae went to tm starbucks wif choir peepx.. or shld sae choir da NEW choir committee.. hehex.. we voted lorr.. den all i wan to b in da comm. all got in lerr... so happi den sumhow i oso gort in cos of a veri LONG story.. so im da onli sec two in da whole group of sec threes.. now i noe how it was like ferr da previous comms. so stressed.. went to starbucks wif dem.. den sat fer like two plus hours.. den discuss alot of tinks.. realised choir alot of problems.. like FINANCIAL problems.. lols.. den gort absentee problems.. spirit problems.. hyas.. alot of problems correct alreadi.. but had fun.. n i drank VANILLA MILKSHAKE... wanna noe y i drank vanilla?? check out my address larr.. ADDICTED!!!

2006-07-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

went plaza sing todae wif frens.. b4 dat had lunch @ genki sushi @ tampines.. den go plaza sing.. lols. we go take neoprints.. walk walk around.. den eat kfc n go home.. lols... hahas.. kk post until here first.. next time post longer.. ((:

2006-06-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

todae is last dae of first week of skool.. hyas.. so fast half a year fly lerr.. next year goin b sec three.. stil as childish as p6.. lols.. tmr is youth dae.. 40 of da crestvoices goin.. dey veri cham.. kena sunburn den stil need sing AND dance @ same time.. i almost join derr.. den my gd fren tel mie dun go.. cos use dis time to prepare ferr SYF COMPEITION.. hope can get in ferr compeition..hyas.. tired n siiann.. dunno y like gort siiann n empty feelin inside mie.. wad shld i do?~ hyas..=#

2006-06-20T06:48:00.000-07:00

wahh so long nv post lerr.. aniwae dis week is last week of holidaes lerr.. relief or regret?? actualli i kinda miss skool.. cos holidaes like so siann-ed at least gort skool den can be kept busy.. ue muz b tinkin im nuts... mayb i m.. but if onli skool dint have exams den life would jus b perfect... or without tests n all those crapp.. lols guess shld jus stop here.. since im onli crappin myself up..lols LURVE all my peeps~

2006-05-31T06:48:00.000-07:00

todae 2/3 went tuu bedok moral student care centre... sum kids so kiut larr dem @ first like everibody shy shy lorr... but after plaein games wit dem dey were friendly n oso noisy... i so sadd-ed lorr... i tryin tuu tel dis boii tuu close his eyes so can plae da game cos dat was part of da game deneuu noe wad he did?? he boxed mie in da left eye lorr... so zhun can hit exactly... walau den so pain lorr... aiyah but cannot blame hym oso... small kid wad... hahas... den we came back so early lorr... 2/8 alreadi dere when we went tuu skool but den cher sae since consent form sae 6pm dey can onli dismiss us around 5.45 so wad lorr... den bcos we all veri tired we all go buy drinks... hahas... den veri bored-ed... den ms hartini took out camera den syidah oso take out camera or izzit nadia?? nort sure larr... den we take klass pix @ da pond... first few pix i almost infront.. hehex... den a few pix later i changed place cos i was kinda squating in da 1st few pix... so i stand up den so sway bhind mie all da tall pple like edmund,pang meng... den 1st pix i stand wit diyana... hehex.. den pang meng go kick mie @ da back lorr... i hit hym ltr... den second pix he ACT TALL cos he wan make mie feel short den edmund alreadi so tall den pang meng go act tall... in da pix i muz b veri short... hyas... poor miie... but gals oso cnt b too tall... cos guys here average is oso nort so tall... hehex...tmr we3 goin sungei buloh nature reserve wit dem... cant wait tuu see dem again... ((: my beloved ayumi hamasaki... hehex... muackx...

2006-05-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

i dun understand y we have tuu do dis stoopid IPW thingy... ifb we choose our own members its nort so bad lorr den stoopid larr... cher choose randomly n well.... hyas... den dis fridae is last dae of skool ferr term 2 den cher sae finish IPW den can sell things ferr CIP but i mean if we dun sell dis week... den how we goin tuu get funds n pay ferr da trip den crapp larr everitink we plan now goin tuu waste... den ifb we dun have enuff funds we hav tuu take out da $$$ ourselves... its so unfair ifb i tel my group do rite dey wun do one lorr n end up i onli one doin den when take credit da whole group gets it... dats y i dunn wan start first... its so wadd lorr... I HATE SECONDARY 2 LYFE... SO SUX... den dis year is streamin yer... den stil wan make us do stoopid stuff... so sux larr... dey sae is pull up our marks ferr streamin den cannot pull up marks by havin short test mehh den we study n take test can help wadd... so unfair lorr... grr.... i wanna cry n jus dun give a shiit bout everitink... help miie.....

2006-05-19T01:50:00.000-07:00

hahas todae da crestvoices put up a ''lunchtime concert''... we sang 5 songs larr... walau da 1st song was phantom of da opera den i sang dis duet wit a guy called jq so yarhhs.. i was paiseh... but he zi dong move nearer hahas... blush lid shiit siia.. heard sum1 sae ehh... she blush until lid dat siia... hahas... i oso felt myself blushin veri hard... hahs... i kinda thot we went slighty off-tune cos mayb we were kinda nervous n scared?? hahas nort sure larr... den i thot dat well... HEY we did great dint we? den Mdm Peh veri funni... we all waitin tuu noe hu is in our new committee so yarhhs... we thot she will tel us dere n den... but horr she sae dat presidency is alreadi settled but haven type out yet so is nort on da notice board yet.. we were lyk... walau ehh... hahas... cant wait tuu noe hu in choir committee... suspense is killin' mie siia... todae ms wong veri kiut she make fun of taufiq n rizal... ''blanga n e nun" LOLS... da whole klass laugh lid shit... hahas... weekend again... 1 more week of skool den officially end of skool... but stil gort structured remedial... kk stop here... buaix...

2006-05-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

blahhs~ end of exams nv post den during da 4daes holidaes oso nv post... so nice nice mie now cum update lerr... todae wen back skool... so bored bring BIG bag... hahas... chao guaii kiia ((hehex)) todae gort four subjects lorr... check MY3 papers... todae check eng,hm.3c,geog. n sci...
eng ms wong sae ''wad is don3 kannot b undon3" den hm.ec. combine wit 2/2 hm ec. den mdm wati cannot control us hahas... walau den so bored-ed she make us read n stand @ da sam3 time... hmph... den geog. mrs sheri sae i muz improve on QUALITY of ans eben though get okok marks.. hahas i veri humble kk... ((bhb)) den mrs sheri tok tuu us lorr..
den sci... winnie frm 2/2 gort highest siia... 93/100 but 2/3 SAFFANAH oso wun lose... she gort 92/100 GO GO SAFFANAH!!
sci gort 17 distinctions but gort 7 failures... aww mann... so tmr seein more papers... scared ferr maths n lit... hyas... c tmr how lorr... no choice... todae gort choir so cn prepare ferr fridae lunch-time concert fwens muz cum support arhh... hehex... ifb nort i smack ur butt... hehex.. no larr... :))

2006-05-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

weets~ todae second last paper lerr... todae ish chinese... den tmr home economics... hehex... we all is 1 hr... d & t pple all 1 n 1/2 hr... poor tink...
hyas... tmr is end of exams lerr... i need give hym my answer lerr... dunno why a guy n a ghurl cannot b jus frens instead of havin bgr... hyas.. when i tel euu hym tmr... he yi ding veri sad derr... n our frenship wil nv b da same again... it wil b so awkard da next time we tok... dat is if we ever tok again... hyas... poor miie... pple celebratin after exams... den mie have tuu bear wit da pain... so shang xiin...

2006-05-05T23:58:00.000-07:00

blah... dunnoe wad to rite lerr... hmmm yesterdae was science paper... ok larr... abit difficult but ok lors... until thursdae den end all da exams siia... so stresed up... mondae is literature paper... another need to rite veri long da paper...hyas... hope wun b too difficult... end of exams means i have to give hym my answer lerr... hyas... how i wish we can stae dis wae instead of goin into bgr n havin to sneak around... isnt dis wae beta? we have a good frenship but we noe wad each other is tinkin n feels... but hyas... euu jus dun wan euu si oso wan stead derr... but i dun have tuu listen tuu wad euu sae... euu keepin tellin mie tuu accept... but i have myy own mind,hart n soul... i tel myself wad im gonna do nort ani other pple... bored-ed now siia... dats y i ritein dis entry... i simply jus dun lyk saturdae afternoons... so hot n crapp... hyas... boos~

2006-05-04T06:47:00.000-07:00

boos~ todae was maths paper one and geography... geog. was ok but abit difficult... den da stoopid maths... so mani questions and so lil'l time how to finish lorr... whole klass sae sure fail derr... jo cry oso she sae she dint get to finish sum questions... walau myy maths alreadi so weak if fail maths so die derr... hyas... so hope maths paper two wun b so difficult so can score and pass lorr... shit lehh... den we had science remedial cher so nice give us tips... but muz catch wad he sae if nort miss out.. he wun sae again derr.. so bad horrs... lols... we gort alot of tips... sum ppledint attend da remedial larr... after dat go downtown east makan... den go home... great news!!! todae when i went ferr myy piano lesson myy cher gave mie myy result ferr myy grade 5 pratical exam... guess wad i gort????? DISTINCTION SIIA!!!!!!!!! whoohoo~~ so damn happi... myy first distinction ferr piano.. oh yea... uh-huh... lols... so i guess it was a bad n great dae ferr mie bahhx....

2006-05-03T05:16:00.000-07:00

todae im sick... started yesterdae... c doctor den eat medicine den zzz all da wae... but todae cannot zzz so early cos tmr gort exam so need read up n study... hyas... so terrified of exams... everitime lid dat derr lorr... b4 or after exam wil b sick derr... hyas... but im nort so ''sway'' lerr... cos reyme so mani daes nv cum until lost count of how long he nv cum den dunno how he goin to catch up... 1st exam de compo derr... he oso nv cum... hyas... dunno how he goin to take exams... heard frm frens he gort severe rashes... hyas... poor thing... todae after recess razak sae our klass veri noisy and make us walk around da parade square dunno how mani times... den summore is drizzling lorr and gort sun shinin so dis kind of rain is sure get sick derr lorr.... den stil makes us walk so mani times until he happi... heck lorr... todae my voice so totally changed... lols.. ade sae aiyoh eliz beta dun tok cos ure voice lid dat i nort xi guan... lols... i oso nort xi guan to it... until i hardly tok and even if i tok oso veri soft... lols... cannot derr... i NEED to tok... but nort asserious as ade... she sae b4 she wil die if she dun tok.. lols... kk.. stop here lerr... need read up on subjects... all those takin exams derr... wish ure all da bex and good luck kks... buaix... :)) p.s it sumtimes sux to b sick... sometimes onli!!!! lols... take kaiire pple...

2006-04-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

todae too tired so dint go church bahhx... lucky oso nv go cos ifb nort wil see da person i dunch wanna see.. hehex..''ANTI!!'' jus kiddin larr... but i realli kant stand hym lorr...dis might sound pathetic but i wished tmr gort skool... hyas... but ifb tmr gort skool i would b zZz BY NOW... shucks... lols dis mornin got up @ 11.30 but lax nite zZz @ 12 plus... aiyah im pig larr.. den stae @ home do work until bout 5 plus.. den go out... go bedok... aiyah... miss mua frens... wan go skool see dem... but siiao... tmr no skool so bored... i rather have skool @ least gort fun n can see mua frens nort like holidae... hyas... dunno if i shld b lookin forward to june holidaes anot... no reason larr...

2006-04-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

how muz i put it so euu can understand... i dun wanna hurt euu and reject euu immediately but if i give euu false hope i wil b hurtin euu even deeper... im confused... euu keep askin mie to acept euu but i told euu how i feel and euu cannot understand... den how to b together... stead is nort such an easi tink when euu jus sae yes and b together until da dae euu break... euu have to understand da person... respect da person decisions... and dun tink euu r in control of dat person life... apparently euu dun seemed to understand dis point... euu jus care whether i accept anot... wad shld i do...

2006-04-26T04:20:00.000-07:00

hyas...dis fridae exams startin lerr... hyas.. so stress-ed up!!! but lookin forward to june holidaes as comfort... hyas... todae mrs sheri so unfair lorr... bwen n val nv cheat lorr den she insist dey cheatin... hai myy poor bwen and val to cry lorr... but dey nv cheat so its nort their fault... hyas... todae ade oso kena caught by mr razak ferr hair siia... mr razak kind of yelled @ her lorr... den ade oso ALMOST cry... but she nv lorr... **lucky** kk bahh end here... oh yea... todae is dickson burfdae... happi burfdae to hym bahh... to all mua frens or pple i noe takin exams soon... GOOD LUCK FERR EXAMS STUDY HARD AND ALL DA BEST!!! :))

2006-04-21T02:40:00.000-07:00

hyas... im postin dis bcos somebodi keeps tellin mie too... lols... wad da hell... i dun realli noe wad to rite siia... so i jux sae dat since x-ams cumin everibodi mux study hard worx... noso good luck ferr dis exams kk? buaix

''LIZvanilla''

2006-04-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

heyy heyy... well dis is da first post... so jus wanna thank da person hu help mie do dis bloggie thingy... which is myy bex sis BRENDA!!! thank euus loads worx... realli appreciate it... kk bahhx... gtg buaix...